You blow your temper again and this time you're ready to give up. You can't change. You've read every self-help book and blog you can find, but your temper cannot be changed.
The tears of despair roll down your cheeks, because this is not the kind of mom you want your kids to remember. You feel the hope draining out of your body and, just like many other moms in your shoes, you begin to tell yourself lies.
We say: "I will always be an angry Mom."
"I will never be able to stop yelling at my kids."
"If only I could make myself stop overeating, I would feel good about myself."
"I've always been a hot mess and I guess I always will."
God says: “Forget all that— it is nothing compared to what I am going to do. For I am about to do something new. See, I have already begun! Do you not see it? I will make a pathway through the wilderness. I will create rivers in the dry wasteland." -Isaiah 43:18-19
We spin in circles, walking the same dry, dusty road of our shortcoming again and again. We long for change, like a wanderer in the desert longs for refreshing streams. Sometimes we make resolutions and our desires spring up before us like an oasis. But we soon discover they're only a mirage, dancing at the edge of our reach and soon there's only ripples of dust left where we imagined fresh water.
We do not need to live in this cycle of defeat! Our loving Father tells us to forget what was before and stop our striving so that we can see what HE will do. And it will be glorious indeed.
That anger that flares up when you least expect it? He can wash it away with His life-giving water. Acknowledge it, take it to Him, repent of it and then ask Him to throw it far away from you. God promises to make rivers in the desert and to create a pathway through the wilderness. He has created a way for us to escape from our old sinful self and it is time for us to quit calling ourselves sinners and to start walking in the new life that He has already given us who call on His name!
God calls us righteous and redeemed. He calls us saints. Do not identify yourself with whatever your besetting sin may be. Quit saying you're a hot mess, you're an angry Mom, you're a bad friend or anything else. Does God say that about you? Certainly not! So who tells us all the negative things about ourselves? Satan. Who are we calling truthful when we repeat negative things about ourselves? Satan.
We must stop. All of us. Right now.
You. Are. Holy.
You think that sounds audacious? This is how we are described in the New Testament. Read Hebrews 10:10, 1 Corinthians 1:2, 1 Corinthians 6:11, 1 John 1:9, and 2 Peter 1:3-4. Click on each link and read these right now.
We do not leave our sin behind by beating ourselves up over it and walking around in a spirit of dejection and self-hate. We leave our sin behind by following Christ and pursuing His good rather than running from our bad. When we run away, we have no clear aim or idea of where we're going. When we pursue Christ, we know exactly which direction we're going.
Walk forward in His righteousness today, sister. That is the road He has created for you in a dry and barren wilderness where there was once nothing.
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